I love challenges. Give me a set amount of days, a goal, structure – I love it! And recently, as in 10 weeks ago, I gave birth to a beautiful little girl.
These two things are related. Let me explain how.
The last 10 weeks have been…well, intense. My daughter Amarah was born via emergency cesarean 4 weeks early. I was not prepared for her early arrival and so was thrown into the deep end without floaties. I already have a son, Kaizen who is about to turn 2. So I wasn’t entering into the motherhood realm for the first time. But there were still a whole lot of firsts that I had to get my head around. My first cesarean, my first breastfeeding routine, my first time juggling the needs of TWO children. Add into that being flung into sleepless nights and you have a recipe for a mind that is foggy, chaotic and exhausted.
While things have been getting better slowly, I’m not comfortable with feeling out of control of my mind. Which brings me to my challenge.
I’ve known for ages how positive a meditation practice is. There are numerous health benefits and the impact on your well being is amazing. I’ve always wanted to have a meditation practice but it has not been something I have prioritised. I’ve let other things be more important.
I thought, enough is enough. It’s time to make a change. So I have given myself a little challenge. Meditate each day for 7 days. The rules are really simple: meditate each day. Doesn’t matter how long for, doesn’t matter when, doesn’t matter if I feel like I’m doing it wrong. I just have to sit, give myself some space and breathe.
I gave myself 7 days because a long challenge can be daunting and overwhelming – too easy for me to be distracted and give up. A short challenge is perfect for my short attention span.
No excuses. I need to fit it in around baby and toddler and general life stuff. I need to create time in my day for me. Because if I don’t, my mind is going to get the better of me. Our minds are so powerful. For me to achieve any level of success or happiness, I need to have my mind on my side – not working against me. I believe that meditation will be the key to achieving mind mastery.
So each day I will write about my experience and we will see, at the end of 7 days, how meditating has impacted my life and if I can create a routine that will be sustainable moving forward. But I can’t let myself worry about carrying on this routine, I just need to focus on the challenge and day to day actions.
Today was day 1. I found some time in the middle of the day after putting Amarah to sleep. I know that i need to listen to something during meditation. Normally I’d go for a guided meditation but today I went for a meditation called “Balance”. This is a free meditation track from OmHarmonics. I’ve tried it before and found it to be really relaxing. It only goes for 15 minutes as well, which is a good amount of time.
So how did it go? Well, my mind was running a million miles an hour and didn’t want to stop. But each time I was aware of it, I could just retrain my focus back to my deep breathing. I was listening to the track through headphones on my mobile, which was great until I got a call. Note to self: put phone on “Do Not Disturb” during meditation. After that slight interruption, I went back to it.
So not the most perfect first meditation session but I did it. I feel relaxed and proud of myself for allowing the time. For me- it’s about self care. When I can take care of myself, I have more to give others.
I know that each day isn’t going to be perfect. There will be good days. There will be bad. But it’s just about choosing the moment, showing up and saying yes.
My message for today: choose your moment. When you feel overwhelmed with all your to do’s, stop and ask yourself what you feel like doing in that moment. Go with the flow of how you feel. I found that after the meditation session, I was able to go with the flow more easily. I was able to stop my mind making negative judgements and instead direct it to a more positive place. Giving myself that time to go inward has already helped me on my way to taming my monkey mind.
So I’m glad that I have started this challenge, I am experiencing the benefits already and I can’t wait to see what else I will experience by the end of the week. Bring on day 2!
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